Posts Tagged ‘FET’

Knock me over with a feather…

OK, so the FET was a big wash out and I was waiting for AF.  My temperature was still up, but of course,  that was just because I couldn’t pinpoint ovulation accurately thanks to the progesterone.  I let myself entertain the idea that I might be pregnant – Ha – just after shelling out $ooo’s for my failed IVF.  After all, this month I had finally got my Estrogen – at my requst – and it HAD got my lining to 12mm.  I’m sure you can imagine my reaction – or lack of  – when this happened:

img_4942I CAN NOT believe that I am pregnant!

I will be 42 next month.

We’re not out of the woods, of course, as my Beta was only 54 at 14dpo, but we have lift off.  And I have sooo many answers now, that if this fails, I will get straight back up again.  Bottom line Ladies is trust yourself.  You know far more about your body than any FS/RE.  Don’t be intimidated like I was and sit back assuming that they know best when your instinct tells you otherwise.  I am informed and knowledgeable and still got taken for a ride.  I dread to think how many girls are out there in the system going through the motions because they don’t know to question things.  Ultimately no-one is going to try as hard as you are to gt your baby.

At the end of the day my RE insisted that at 9mm my lining was fine.  I had to insist that for me a 36-48hr period (despite measuring 9mm) was not fine.  I insisted on the Estrogen and Voila!

Don’t get me wrong.  I don’t think my RE did it on purpose but ultimately he couldn’t get past my age and therefore didn’t try to ‘solve’ my problem as to him the problem was being 41!!

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I started back on Progesterone today just to b safe 🙂

So close

I was all set to go. Timing good, babysitter organized, lining ready, but I got the call at 4:30pm today to let me know that my little blast didn’t make it.  I feel disappointed but OK.   I knew things were going too smoothly, what with that 12mm lining ready to go.  Unfortunately, I don’t have a plan C so it’s back to the drawing board for me…. I do know that it will probably feature estrogen but will it feature IVF?

A glimmer of hope

So I have been taking my estrogen  starting on 2mg/day until cd9 then 4mg/day.  It has messed with me a bit and exacerbated the low grade depression I’m sure I’ve had since Dad died.  I’ve been teary and cranky, snappy and forgetful.  I haven’t really thought about the FET either.  Evidence of my distraction is that I went to the clinic today for my cd12 scan and I’m on cd11!  However, I actually received some good news.  My estrogen supplemented lining is…. wait for it… 12mm!!!!!  Yes!  So now I have my glimmer of hope back.  I also had a 21mm follicle on my LHS which Dr M was surprised about as apparently the Estrogen is supposed to suppress the FSH.  Looks like I will surge tonight and I have to start taking my progesterone with FET on Friday 26th.

Typical that this ancient nearly 42yo still ovulates on birth control but can’t get pregnant…..

Drug addict

I really like taking my estrogen.  I think it’s a bit weird and I have read about hormone cravings where you can’t wait for your next ‘fix’.  I’m not that bad but I do think I feel better for taking it.  I know it’s seriously linked to mood in women so maybe the explanation is that simple.

Anyway, I’m cd 6 with my lining scan on cd12.  I am seriously curious to see whether it’s any thicker.  FET will be six days after ovulation so I estimate around the 29th.

Still plodding along

Gee time flies when you’re not doing IVF 😆

AF came Oct 14th after stopping the Crinone on the 12th.  I was anticipating something normal but sure enough 48hrs later I was once again AF free.  So, even though my lining is measuring 9mm I am not having a normal period.  Either something is up or 9mm, for me, is not ‘normal’ enough.

BFN

BFN

Went today to see Dr M about the FET.  I mentioned the above and we will try estrogen for that cycle to see if I can get it any thicker – not holding my breath.  If the FET fails – as I suspect (know) it will, I will go to see Dr S for one more stim cycle before calling it quits.  He seems a little more innovative and will try things like Viagra for my lining.  I think I’ll also go the assisted hatching route this time despite making it to blast.

This cycle’s been pretty normal so I guess thre’s not too much wrong with the ‘old’ system.  One week to go and the FET begins!!  I will take the Progynova (estrogen) and be monitored for natural ovulation.  Then six days later I’ll have ET if it defrosts OK.  Fingers are crossed and chance of a successful thaw is 70%.

Taking a break

Taking a break

On the upside we will soon be having a ‘baby’ join our family and here he is:

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He is coming as a companion for our lonely pig ‘Cadbury’ and we get him in two weeks.  Here is Cadbury with his owner and Mum’s old ‘Pig’ Licorice.  Cadbury is on the left.

boys-and-friends

It’s booked

My appointment is on the 7th November but I’ll try to see if I can get an earlier cancellation.  I figure I have a month off before the earliest I can do my FET.  Time enough to have another D&C if necessary.   I may as well do something proactive.  

I feel better already, kind of calm and accepting and, as always, eternally grateful for what I already have!!!!!

Self preservation.

I am a negative Nelly.  Not a test – I’m not that crazy although the thought did occur to me, but this morning I feel very pessimistic.  Also, as anticipated I now wish I’d made them transfer two.  I’ve already decided that if I do a FET I want both thawed and transferred and I want some Estrogen!!!  I don’t feel I can move on with those little frosties in the wings…