5dp5dt – BFN

Well no surprises here. My HPT is stark white. I know it’s ‘early’ so I will give things two more days but my distinct lack of symptoms pretty much confirm things. For me, the pregnancy give away is insomnia. In early pregnancy I feel like I can’t switch off but I’m dead tired at the same time. This cycle I’m sleeping like a log.

I figure that I have been putting one embryo into a substandard lining for three years so why someone else doing it would make a difference I don’t know. I’ll talk to my Dr about an injects cycle and take it from there.

Ho hum.

Big Fat Negative

Big Fat Negative

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Nothing for, nothing against…

I know it’s too early for a result but given that my last ‘successful’ (as in we made it past 12 weeks) pregnancy showed a strong + at 8dpo that now tends to be my benchmark.  Combined with my ‘most sensitive HPT ever made’ tests, not even a shadow of a line does not bode well.  I have no nausea, no pulling or stretching, no stabs in my ovaries.  All of these have occurred by now in previous pregnancies.  But, I will keep on keeping on as I would love to be proved wrong 🙂

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And it’s gone

Will it come back?  I highly doubt it.

3dp3dt

3dp3dt

I must say I’m not feeling it.  every blog I trawl for 3dp3dt has vague symptoms of gas or cramping and I also had cramping by now with the twins.  So, so far I have no indication whatsoever that this will end well.

Of course I have decided on my backup plan which always makes my disappointment easier to handle.

I’m going to do another injects cycle but with a lower dose than for the twins.  150iu of Gonal-F and a natural cycle – after a month off, of course 😉

And here is my chart with the required temp hike but that could be from worrying about the lack of temp hike 😀

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Testing it out

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6dp trigger
5dp retrieval
2dp3dt

Embryo Transfer

I had my transfer at 9am so I had to be ready to leave home by about 7:30 am which was quite ciclised.  I haven’t been sleeping well.  I’ve had sharp pain since retrieval along with a LOT of bloating but I felt this start to improve by about lunchtime yesterday and by this morning it was quite bearable.  Plus the swelling has dramatically decreased.

I see the Embryologist who tells me she did the assisted hatching and I am getting a 10cell embryo which is starting to compact.

Then Dr T tells me it was a 12cell grade 2.  I guess both measurements are correct depending on when they were taken.  So I’m off and running.  I’m trying to take it easy but N is not helping me on this score.  Fortunately there is no risk of spontaneous jogging or any other form of exercise.

So I’m waiting, and sweating (which I assume is from the progesterone) and will keep you posted one way or the other 😉

Disaster strikes

I called the day after retrieval and was gobsmacked to hear that of the six eggs, only one has fertilised. I didn’t imagine this scenario even at my cynical best! It was described as ‘just one of those things’ as both eggs and sperm appear just fine.

So I have transfer of my one embryo at 8am tomorrow. I am upset but realise it could have been worse – although not that much.

Decided on assisted hatching.

Doubt I’ll go down this track again but maybe I won’t have to. Not holding my breath though…

Oh, and I also think I have mild OHSS. I’m blown up like a balloon and in a quite bit of pain.

Egg retrieval

Things went really well.  Scheduled for midday which meant I got to have brekky 🙂

Spoke to the Embryologist about a day 3 with assisted hatching and she noted it for discussion depending on numbers etc.

I asked Dr T to measure my lining on the table. Unfortunately it was the first piece of news I got on my way to recovery – 8mm.  I am irrationally upset by it, I guess because I wanted it all to go perfectly.  No other cycle including last years blastocyst transfer has been successful with that lining measurement. Last cycle – the Flare – I was 11mm by cd10 which is the measurement I had for the successful (albeit fleetingly) cancelled FET last year.

The good news was that they got 6 eggs.  So now the waiting commences.  I find this particular wait the hardest because I’m a spectator not a participant.

I’ll update tomorrow with the fertilisation report.   Please cross your fingers for me!