I was all set to go. Timing good, babysitter organized, lining ready, but I got the call at 4:30pm today to let me know that my little blast didn’t make it. I feel disappointed but OK. I knew things were going too smoothly, what with that 12mm lining ready to go. Unfortunately, I don’t have a plan C so it’s back to the drawing board for me…. I do know that it will probably feature estrogen but will it feature IVF?
So I have been taking my estrogen starting on 2mg/day until cd9 then 4mg/day. It has messed with me a bit and exacerbated the low grade depression I’m sure I’ve had since Dad died. I’ve been teary and cranky, snappy and forgetful. I haven’t really thought about the FET either. Evidence of my distraction is that I went to the clinic today for my cd12 scan and I’m on cd11! However, I actually received some good news. My estrogen supplemented lining is…. wait for it… 12mm!!!!! Yes! So now I have my glimmer of hope back. I also had a 21mm follicle on my LHS which Dr M was surprised about as apparently the Estrogen is supposed to suppress the FSH. Looks like I will surge tonight and I have to start taking my progesterone with FET on Friday 26th.
Typical that this ancient nearly 42yo still ovulates on birth control but can’t get pregnant…..
I really like taking my estrogen. I think it’s a bit weird and I have read about hormone cravings where you can’t wait for your next ‘fix’. I’m not that bad but I do think I feel better for taking it. I know it’s seriously linked to mood in women so maybe the explanation is that simple.
Anyway, I’m cd 6 with my lining scan on cd12. I am seriously curious to see whether it’s any thicker. FET will be six days after ovulation so I estimate around the 29th.
Gee time flies when you’re not doing IVF 
AF came Oct 14th after stopping the Crinone on the 12th. I was anticipating something normal but sure enough 48hrs later I was once again AF free. So, even though my lining is measuring 9mm I am not having a normal period. Either something is up or 9mm, for me, is not ‘normal’ enough.
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Went today to see Dr M about the FET. I mentioned the above and we will try estrogen for that cycle to see if I can get it any thicker – not holding my breath. If the FET fails – as I suspect (know) it will, I will go to see Dr S for one more stim cycle before calling it quits. He seems a little more innovative and will try things like Viagra for my lining. I think I’ll also go the assisted hatching route this time despite making it to blast.
This cycle’s been pretty normal so I guess thre’s not too much wrong with the ‘old’ system. One week to go and the FET begins!! I will take the Progynova (estrogen) and be monitored for natural ovulation. Then six days later I’ll have ET if it defrosts OK. Fingers are crossed and chance of a successful thaw is 70%.
Taking a break
On the upside we will soon be having a ‘baby’ join our family and here he is:
He is coming as a companion for our lonely pig ‘Cadbury’ and we get him in two weeks. Here is Cadbury with his owner and Mum’s old ‘Pig’ Licorice. Cadbury is on the left.
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