Today I tested although I knew the result would be BFN – which is was. I am so completely back to normal that I harbour no illusions that it is ‘just too early’ I feel quite excited at the prospect of a month off for the first time since January ‘07, although it will be [...]
Archive for October, 2008
11 Oct
Hormonal ramblings – 4dp5dt
Hmmmm. Maybe a bit of an overreaction yesterday (insert blushing emoticon here) I must be hormonal – go figure. Although, in my defense I’ve never been wrong before. But still, I am holding on to a thin thread of hope. Mind you I’d bite your head off as quick as look at you today so [...]
10 Oct
It’s booked
My appointment is on the 7th November but I’ll try to see if I can get an earlier cancellation. I figure I have a month off before the earliest I can do my FET. Time enough to have another D&C if necessary. I may as well do something proactive.
I feel better already, kind [...]
10 Oct
Not good – 3dp5dt
I woke up at 4:30am this morning and balled my eyes out. I felt teary before I went to bed, but this was full on sadness. I know I’m not pregnant and given the quality of the embryo it confirms that my uterus is to blame. I should have trusted myself and ignored the doctors [...]
8 Oct
Self preservation.
I am a negative Nelly. Not a test – I’m not that crazy although the thought did occur to me, but this morning I feel very pessimistic. Also, as anticipated I now wish I’d made them transfer two. I’ve already decided that if I do a FET I want both thawed and transferred and I [...]
8 Oct
Well, it’s done.
My day started really well. Mum came and picked the boys up – it’s school holidays – and then I went to Acupuncture. I could really feel things happening. Then it was off to my transfer. I got a parking spot right out the front which never happens. They kept me waiting for a while. [...]
6 Oct
Decisions, decisions…
I spoke to Embryology and my transfer is booked for 11:15am tomorrow. Now I am really agonising over how many to ask to be transferred. My Dr will likely want only one but given my ‘lining issues’ I can’t see how this is increasing my chances. Having said that if one works there is all [...]
5 Oct
Grow little embies
Things are still looking good with two at 8 cells and one at 6 cells. I’m still not getting excited. I never thought I suddenly had old eggs. I thought something else was preventing me from getting pregnant. I so hope that they are right – which gives this a fighting chance – and I [...]
4 Oct
Grumpy, grumpy, grumpy…
I am grumpy. I assume this is hormonal, but then maybe it’s just me. Either way I’ve had a pretty easy run of it, so I’m trying to control myself and not take it out on everyone else.
Spoke to the Embryologist today. All three embryos are level pegging and all are at text book 4 [...]
3 Oct
The day after
I’m feeling quite achey today but it seems that the virus is finally gone – or has ‘it’ been helped on it’s way by the IVF Doxycycline?? I am also quite apprehensive about phoning this afternoon for results. Hopeful doesn’t really enter into my TTC world these days and I’ve been careful to be suitably [...]
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